Journal 5/29/12

Cia's already started using stronger stims. She's talked to the doctor about having a combat clone set up, too. Cia, in a combat clone. She wants to be able to help me, and she does. It's just... none of it is enough, not fast enough and it's getting to be too much real fast. She wants to help, and it's getting dangerous. She doesn't understand.

It's rough on her. She just started crying. She tried to act like she was okay, afterward, but I know she isn't.

I have to do something, there's really no choice. 'sayer isn't bad, as these things go. Just when I need it. I can control it. I did before. No nightmares, and I'll stop needing so much from Cia. I have to.